I have recently come to the understanding that Self is the opaque veil that hides the Face of YHVH from us. It can be removed only in spiritual experience, never by mere instruction. Instruction only is, as well, trying to instruct leprosy or some infectious disease out of our system. There must be a work of Yeshua in us before we are free. We must bring our sins to the Father for judgment. We must prepare ourselves for an ordeal of suffering in some measure like that through which our Saviour did for us on the way to die on the cross. Many do not think of the true pain that Yeshua suffered long before being hung on the cross/stake.
When we talk of the removing of the veil we are speaking of a figure, and the thought of it is a poetical justice, almost pleasant; but in reality there is nothing pleasant about it. In human experience that veil is made of a spiritual tissue; it is composed of the finely sensitive perception of which our whole beings consist, and to touch it is to touch us where we feel pain.
To tear it away is to injure us, to hurt us and make us bleed. To say otherwise, is to make Yeshua and His death no death at all. It is never fun to die. To rip through the dear and tender stuff of which life is made can never be anything but deeply painful. Yet that is what the crucifixion did to Yeshua and it is the same thing that it would do to every man to set him free.
To begin tinkering with our inner life in hope of removing the veil. YHVH must do everything for us. Our part is to yield and trust. We must confess, forsake, refute the self-life, and then reckon it to be crucified. But we must be careful to distinguish lazy ‘acceptance’ from the real work of YHVH. We must insist upon the work being done. We dare not rest content with a neat doctrine of self-crucifixion. That is to imitate and spare the best of the sheep and the oxen.
We must insist that the work be done in very truth and it will be done. The road to the cross is rough, and it is deadly, but it is effective. It does not keep its victim hanging there forever. There comes a moment when its work is finished and the suffering victim dies. After that is resurrection glory and power, and the pain is forgotten for joy that the veil is taken away and we have entered in actual spiritual experience the Presence of our living YHVH…